Rebuilding Life After Loss

“The paradox of grief is that while it can be overwhelming, it is, in the end a gift. Gift? Yes. Grief is how you heal a broken heart. And if you deny it or hide it or try to duck it, you only delay it. The writer, Annie Dillard said, ‘Pain is a terrible thing to waste.’ As you work through your pain you will see that you have the power to transform it and use your hard-earned wisdom and insight to help someone else.” –Laura Palmer – Author of Shrapnel in the Heart – Presented at the SDIT gathering in Washington D.C. in 1992.

Denial is a vital step in the grieving process.  The emotional pain of losing  a loved one is overwhelming so we deny  in order to survive the loss. The difficulty arises when one lives in denial for too long.

My Story

When my husband died, I was  22 years old, 7 months pregnant and living with parents.  I went back to my full-time job  a week after Howard’s funeral. It must have been difficult for my co-workers to see a young, pregnant, military widow. Everyone avoided me. They didn’t know what to say.

I denied my grief to make other people comfortable. The longer I denied it, the harder it became to face it.  It was like a dark cellar that I was afraid to enter. I may never make it out again.

Yet every step I took and every decision I made  in my life after his death was based on running away, hiding in shame or trying to climb through the wreckage of my denied grief.

Loss is neither a disappointment to be gotten over nor an illness from which one recovers. It is a deep wound that must heal slowly from the inside out. – Living with Grief After Sudden Loss –  Hospice Foundation of America.

Grief kept chasing me, but I always outran it. In 1990 at the age of 45, after I suffered one loss too many, I tumbled down into a major depressive episode.  My daughter didn’t recognize me.  I was suicidal for the first time in my life. Thank God  I  was offered a trip to visit The Vietnam Veterans Memorial Wall by a Vietnam veteran who had read an article I’d written in my local paper about being an invisible casualty of the war. After that trip to DC,  I was able to finish my book: Grief Denied A Vietnam Widow’s Story.

Having lived over half of my life in the first stage of grief, “Shock & Denial”, is it any wonder I’m committed to supporting others in grieving sooner rather than later?

Feel free to contact me by calling 707-578-4226 or 707-332-1406 or email me at to discuss how I may be of service to you.

Denied grief doesn’t go away, it just goes underground.

“Pauline is a wise-woman possessing a refreshing combination of compassion, humor and no-nonsense frankness. When she told me that I needed to be witnessed in my grief, it resonated deeply. She showed me how to “turn around and face the grief” of losing my father at 23. She helped me to touch this ancient pain, examine it, express it and release it. She has helped me to acknowledge the multiple losses from that time in my life and to see the effects of those losses on my adult experience. As I step into a life of greater confidence, trust and abundance, I know that I am forever changed by my summer of grieving with Pauline.”

Maria Perry
September 2013

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“My initial coaching session with Pauline was helping me with the grief of losing my dear cat. The next step was to transition from working full-time into an early retirement. I learned a lot about myself and it’s pretty shocking to see how much ground we have covered. Pauline helped me choose different perspectives regarding many situations in my life that made it easier to make the changes I wanted to make.   It’s frightening, sad and scary to end our work together, however, after only one year, I feel I have developed a strong inner nurturing mother. I’ve also become a risk taker. Thank you, Pauline, for helping me escape from the “cage of fear” I’ve lived in for most of my life. I’m now happily retired, have a better relationship with my boyfriend, have started writing, taking music lessons, and doing yoga regularly – all as a result of my work with Pauline as my life coach. I’m grateful and excited about my future.

–Diane K., R.N.
December 2015

Thank you for this year. I could not be where I am without you. My internal world-view is different. You have taught me self compassion, to cut myself some slack, and quiet the voice of my “inner critic”. I have become someone who can live by myself, be there for others but not at my own expense. You have the ability to press issues without berating. You have a good combo of tough and gentle; yet, you can’t be ignored. You helped me see a lot about myself and I didn’t get defensive. I am surprised by how much I have grown and changed in the past year.

Young Widow
January 2014

Evening Primrose

 Pauline Laurent, CPCC

Certified Professional
Co-Active Life Coach

For more information about Pauline visit her Grief-Coaching web site.

Life does not accommodate you; It shatters you.
Every seed destroys its container, or else there would be no fruition.

   – – Florida Scott-Maxwell


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